patience is not my virtue

I've been told so many times through my life by loved ones: Be patient. You need time to heal.
And I never listen. I am patient to the furthest extents of Karen patience and then I leap once I feel healed.
To me, healed meant feeling capable of going on with daily life no longer feeling daily pain.

But it is more than that and after decades and multiple run of the mill surprise life changes I am starting to understand that the stages of healing runs the same conduit as the process of re-becoming.